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So uh... Yeah, Been a while, huh?
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Hey! Wow, Been fucking ages since I last visited this place... Big things have happened, lots of changes.
Speaking of changes, seems as though DeviantArt has updated the whole look and feel of the website. Unfortunately, they've still stuck with the crappy colour scheme. Oh well, I guess I'm not the artist of this establishment.
I feel that I've hugely neglected this site and it's people, And perhaps even the people that used to be in my life when I was a happier young lad, studying, not working. I've left a lot of things behind, and I'm going to use this journal on DeviantArt to hopefully restart my artistic spark!
Weather it's just been a hard time for me, adjusting to the independent life, more decisions and responsibilities, in fact I should sleep, I have work in less than 6 hours. Or weather I've just forgotten the things that make me happy.
Friends have tried telling me that it's alcohol that makes me happy... But it's VERY short term, and has side effects.
Family have said it's that they're not around... Perhaps, but I love the freedom.
Some closer friends have still stayed in contact with me, and I with them, And this has made life that little better.
But I feel, the reasons I feel the way I feel, has something to do with all of the above, and more!
It certainly feels good to have a girlfriend.
I'd love to have a better job.
A motorcycle would certainly full fill some fantasies.
Better income would allow for more comfortable living.
Better housemates, that aren't as ignorant, manipulative and stupid, would REALLY help, not only my living standard, but also my sanity and wellbeing.
Perhaps even healthier eating and living would also help...
The point I am trying to make is, I feel I've lost a lot of my personality and my own self being.
If art was my way of expressing myself, or even my way to a better job, since it is my field of study, then perhaps I need to stop being so lazy, stop wasting my time on Facebook, and actually get up and draw something! Model something! Create a logo or a website, for nothing! Just to get it out... Let my artistic creative side explode like a volcano erupting! Throwing glowing lava into the air, and oozing brilliant magma down the edges of myself...
The only way I can make this work, is to make a promise to myself, and to NOT forget about it.
If this idea does not succeed, then...
Well, We'll get to that if it comes around. Lol.
I may make another Journal entry later, to update you all... Or parhaps, to kick-off the artistic side, I should upload photos I've taken, or other artistic things I've made, in a way of telling a story of my past year and a half.
I shall finish this now and Upload another photo before sleeping.
Speaking of changes, seems as though DeviantArt has updated the whole look and feel of the website. Unfortunately, they've still stuck with the crappy colour scheme. Oh well, I guess I'm not the artist of this establishment.
I feel that I've hugely neglected this site and it's people, And perhaps even the people that used to be in my life when I was a happier young lad, studying, not working. I've left a lot of things behind, and I'm going to use this journal on DeviantArt to hopefully restart my artistic spark!
Weather it's just been a hard time for me, adjusting to the independent life, more decisions and responsibilities, in fact I should sleep, I have work in less than 6 hours. Or weather I've just forgotten the things that make me happy.
Friends have tried telling me that it's alcohol that makes me happy... But it's VERY short term, and has side effects.
Family have said it's that they're not around... Perhaps, but I love the freedom.
Some closer friends have still stayed in contact with me, and I with them, And this has made life that little better.
But I feel, the reasons I feel the way I feel, has something to do with all of the above, and more!
It certainly feels good to have a girlfriend.
I'd love to have a better job.
A motorcycle would certainly full fill some fantasies.
Better income would allow for more comfortable living.
Better housemates, that aren't as ignorant, manipulative and stupid, would REALLY help, not only my living standard, but also my sanity and wellbeing.
Perhaps even healthier eating and living would also help...
The point I am trying to make is, I feel I've lost a lot of my personality and my own self being.
If art was my way of expressing myself, or even my way to a better job, since it is my field of study, then perhaps I need to stop being so lazy, stop wasting my time on Facebook, and actually get up and draw something! Model something! Create a logo or a website, for nothing! Just to get it out... Let my artistic creative side explode like a volcano erupting! Throwing glowing lava into the air, and oozing brilliant magma down the edges of myself...
The only way I can make this work, is to make a promise to myself, and to NOT forget about it.
If this idea does not succeed, then...
Well, We'll get to that if it comes around. Lol.
I may make another Journal entry later, to update you all... Or parhaps, to kick-off the artistic side, I should upload photos I've taken, or other artistic things I've made, in a way of telling a story of my past year and a half.
I shall finish this now and Upload another photo before sleeping.
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BIG NEWS!
2 min read
Hey Guys.
So yeah, Big news. I passed my Certificate 4! Whoo! On a Credit level! Probably the highest rank I've even received from a school.
And as such, I needed to find work or continue studying... I picked studying.
So, Now I'm moving to the Australian Capital. Canberra!
To study animation at AIE, a really good school for gamers and movie FX artists alike... I hope to learn a lot from there. Which I assume I will. I also hope to beat my "Credit average", With a Distinction or something!
Big news, that accompanies the previously mentioned. I'm moving out! To live on my own! Leaving imroy with my parents. HA! And all my chores and heart ache... *sigh*. Sure is exciting!
Anyway, If anyone actually does read this, Or view my page, You've probably noticed, I haven't been submitting anything for like, a year. That's because I was studying. So as I go on to study harder and bigger stuff this year, It's going to take more of my time. But like I did last year, I'll submit anything cool I make in the process. So I'm still open for business! I'll just be studying more.
I hope you all had a great Xmas, And I wish you all a Happy new year... A bit late, but Meh.
Regards.
Scott.
So yeah, Big news. I passed my Certificate 4! Whoo! On a Credit level! Probably the highest rank I've even received from a school.
And as such, I needed to find work or continue studying... I picked studying.
So, Now I'm moving to the Australian Capital. Canberra!
To study animation at AIE, a really good school for gamers and movie FX artists alike... I hope to learn a lot from there. Which I assume I will. I also hope to beat my "Credit average", With a Distinction or something!
Big news, that accompanies the previously mentioned. I'm moving out! To live on my own! Leaving imroy with my parents. HA! And all my chores and heart ache... *sigh*. Sure is exciting!
Anyway, If anyone actually does read this, Or view my page, You've probably noticed, I haven't been submitting anything for like, a year. That's because I was studying. So as I go on to study harder and bigger stuff this year, It's going to take more of my time. But like I did last year, I'll submit anything cool I make in the process. So I'm still open for business! I'll just be studying more.
I hope you all had a great Xmas, And I wish you all a Happy new year... A bit late, but Meh.
Regards.
Scott.
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Great ideas and Really weird story...
4 min read
God damnit! I need inspiration!
Good Inspiration!
I swear, Volcom, if you say anything on here that's:
* Gay
* Sexual
* Gruesome
* Stupid
* Painful
Then I'm going to hit you!
But seriously, People... TELL ME WHAT TO DO!
I've run out of things to model.
TAFE is taking up a lot of my time, Though I'm doing an Arts course. But I need to make art in my spare time, And I can't think of what to do.
If I be political, People hate me for my views.
If I be abstract, People think I've got no talent.
If I try too hard, It comes out looking really shit!
*sob*... I need help!
I I thinking, I could do sketching and photography, Things that are faster and need less processing and post-processing, unlike modeling. (no offence to photographers and sketch artists.)
Also, I had the weirdest thing happen to me today, I'll try to type it in narrative form, to make it more interesting.
2 days ago, I re-installed a game, Black and White 2, Hoping I could take media from it and use it in my documentary for TAFE...
I played it for a while, getting really bored really quick and decided to quit the game.
But I thought to myself "It's such a great example of morals, I'll get the patch to fix the bugs, So I could continue using it as a resource.". I started the download and went to bed.
I awoke the next day to find the download had finished. I began installing the patch.
The patch installed quickly, But when I clicked on the '.exe', to play the game, it had an error. I was confused for a while, But gave up very soon, I was sick of the game anyway, so I decided to uninstall it.
I had nothing to do that day and needed something to keep me occupied.
Counter Strike, it will get my blood pumping and nerves reacting!
... An error!... "Missing DLL".
"What the..." I said softly, while reading the rest of the message.
Oh well, that game is often unstable, I'll just play some Heavy Weapon (A small flash game).
... "Backgound.jpg not found". "Ok, this is getting annoying!" I thought as I closed the error message in anger.
Stupid crap games, I'll just play some trusty Supreme Commander...
... "SupremeCommander.exe missing"
"OMFG! What the fuck is wrong?" I cursed loudly at my computer, shacking my hands angrily in question.
I inspected my Games folder, And found all the games folders intact. But upon deeper inspection I found that those folders were basically empty!
I checked the Counter strike folder first.
It looked fine from the outside, but inside, there were no folders! Only files: readme's, shortcuts, etc.
All the sub-folders were missing! The "cstrike" folder, and others were all missing!
I quickly checked my Supreme Commander directory... SAME THING!
I was mortified!
I went back to the root of "c:/" and requested the properties, too see the pie graph of free space...
To my devastation, I had an extra 30 gigs of free space which I didn't have before!
Somehow, my computer, at some point, deleted a large amount of data, without me knowing!
That's some seriously fucked up shit!
Anyway, I hope you all have a nice day, and hope to hear from you all with inspiration.
Good Inspiration!
I swear, Volcom, if you say anything on here that's:
* Gay
* Sexual
* Gruesome
* Stupid
* Painful
Then I'm going to hit you!
But seriously, People... TELL ME WHAT TO DO!
I've run out of things to model.
TAFE is taking up a lot of my time, Though I'm doing an Arts course. But I need to make art in my spare time, And I can't think of what to do.
If I be political, People hate me for my views.
If I be abstract, People think I've got no talent.
If I try too hard, It comes out looking really shit!
*sob*... I need help!
I I thinking, I could do sketching and photography, Things that are faster and need less processing and post-processing, unlike modeling. (no offence to photographers and sketch artists.)
Also, I had the weirdest thing happen to me today, I'll try to type it in narrative form, to make it more interesting.
2 days ago, I re-installed a game, Black and White 2, Hoping I could take media from it and use it in my documentary for TAFE...
I played it for a while, getting really bored really quick and decided to quit the game.
But I thought to myself "It's such a great example of morals, I'll get the patch to fix the bugs, So I could continue using it as a resource.". I started the download and went to bed.
I awoke the next day to find the download had finished. I began installing the patch.
The patch installed quickly, But when I clicked on the '.exe', to play the game, it had an error. I was confused for a while, But gave up very soon, I was sick of the game anyway, so I decided to uninstall it.
I had nothing to do that day and needed something to keep me occupied.
Counter Strike, it will get my blood pumping and nerves reacting!
... An error!... "Missing DLL".
"What the..." I said softly, while reading the rest of the message.
Oh well, that game is often unstable, I'll just play some Heavy Weapon (A small flash game).
... "Backgound.jpg not found". "Ok, this is getting annoying!" I thought as I closed the error message in anger.
Stupid crap games, I'll just play some trusty Supreme Commander...
... "SupremeCommander.exe missing"
"OMFG! What the fuck is wrong?" I cursed loudly at my computer, shacking my hands angrily in question.
I inspected my Games folder, And found all the games folders intact. But upon deeper inspection I found that those folders were basically empty!
I checked the Counter strike folder first.
It looked fine from the outside, but inside, there were no folders! Only files: readme's, shortcuts, etc.
All the sub-folders were missing! The "cstrike" folder, and others were all missing!
I quickly checked my Supreme Commander directory... SAME THING!
I was mortified!
I went back to the root of "c:/" and requested the properties, too see the pie graph of free space...
To my devastation, I had an extra 30 gigs of free space which I didn't have before!
Somehow, my computer, at some point, deleted a large amount of data, without me knowing!
That's some seriously fucked up shit!
Anyway, I hope you all have a nice day, and hope to hear from you all with inspiration.
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ah ah AH!
1 min read
CHOOO!
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Americans... Need I say more?
2 min read
The following is a comment I found by a person on some website called "www.RankySpanky.com/".
All credit should be addressed to that person. The link: rankyspanky.com/2007/02/04/top…
Top ten reasons why Gay marriage is wrong:
1) Being gay is not natural. Real Americans always reject unnatural things like eyeglasses, polyester, and air conditioning.
2) Gay marriage will encourage people to be gay, in the same way that hanging around tall people will make you tall.
3) Gay marriage will change the foundation of society; we could never adapt to new social norms. Just like we haven't adapted to cars, the service-sector economy, or longer life spans.
4) Straight marriage has been around a long time and hasn't changed at all; women are still property, blacks still can't marry whites, and divorce is still illegal.
5) Straight marriage will be less meaningful if gay marriage were allowed; the sanctity of Brittany Spears' 55-hour just-for-fun marriage would be destroyed.
6) Straight marriages are valid because they produce children. Gay couples, infertile couples, and old people shouldn't be allowed to marry because our orphanages aren't full yet, and the world needs more children.
7) Obviously gay parents will raise gay children, since straight parents only raise straight children.
8) Children can never succeed without a male and a female role model at home. That's why we as a society expressly forbid single parents to raise children.
9) Legalizing gay marriage will open the door to all kinds of crazy behavior. People may even wish to marry their pets because a dog has legal standing and can sign a marriage contract.
(one of the saddest parts about our society is that these arguments, before the humorous common sense, are the real reasons why people can't accept gay marriages.)
REPOST THIS IF YOU BELIEVE THAT GAY MARRIAGE SHOULD BE LEGAL! EITHER EVERYONE HAS EQUAL RIGHTS OR NO ONE DOES! THAT'S WHY IT SAYS "ONE NATION, UNDER GOD, WITH LIBERTY AND JUSTICE FOR ALL"
All credit should be addressed to that person. The link: rankyspanky.com/2007/02/04/top…
Top ten reasons why Gay marriage is wrong:
1) Being gay is not natural. Real Americans always reject unnatural things like eyeglasses, polyester, and air conditioning.
2) Gay marriage will encourage people to be gay, in the same way that hanging around tall people will make you tall.
3) Gay marriage will change the foundation of society; we could never adapt to new social norms. Just like we haven't adapted to cars, the service-sector economy, or longer life spans.
4) Straight marriage has been around a long time and hasn't changed at all; women are still property, blacks still can't marry whites, and divorce is still illegal.
5) Straight marriage will be less meaningful if gay marriage were allowed; the sanctity of Brittany Spears' 55-hour just-for-fun marriage would be destroyed.
6) Straight marriages are valid because they produce children. Gay couples, infertile couples, and old people shouldn't be allowed to marry because our orphanages aren't full yet, and the world needs more children.
7) Obviously gay parents will raise gay children, since straight parents only raise straight children.
8) Children can never succeed without a male and a female role model at home. That's why we as a society expressly forbid single parents to raise children.
9) Legalizing gay marriage will open the door to all kinds of crazy behavior. People may even wish to marry their pets because a dog has legal standing and can sign a marriage contract.
(one of the saddest parts about our society is that these arguments, before the humorous common sense, are the real reasons why people can't accept gay marriages.)
REPOST THIS IF YOU BELIEVE THAT GAY MARRIAGE SHOULD BE LEGAL! EITHER EVERYONE HAS EQUAL RIGHTS OR NO ONE DOES! THAT'S WHY IT SAYS "ONE NATION, UNDER GOD, WITH LIBERTY AND JUSTICE FOR ALL"
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